School Tomorrow....

Spring quarter starts tomorrow and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. I already feel burnt out of school, yet I know it is well worth every blood,sweat, and tear I put into it. So since classes start tomorrow...I decided to write 2 lists down. One with my fears and worries about this upcoming quarter and another one with why this quarter is going to kick butt like no one's business. Here's a sneak peak into what I have written down....
Negative:
stress, anxiety, pressure, keeping up with studying, being lazy, procrastinating, having no desire to be in school, giving up, work, balancing out AKD and school, not reaching my academic goals for the quarter, failing.

Positive:
eagerness to learn about new things, my professors are ALL well known for being amazing, having new friends in my class who we now can keep each other accountable, staying focused and being dedicated in my reading, the value of my education is priceless. PERIOD., being involved in AKD and desiring to make it into something BIG that can make a difference..no matter how much I struggle with it, being obedient not only to God, but to school, knowing that I will never fail at anything I do because I have God, family, friends and so many other people who believe in me so much that will never let me fail.

I promise myself to stay true to what these two lists say. When I'm feeling down, I promise to read the positive list to motivate myself and remember why I am doing this. When I'm feeling good, I promise to read the negative side so I can remember that time in my life where I struggled and smile because I got throught it alive.

Just in case I may need it during the quarter..... ;)

Because today just feels great....

Good morning Internet! The past week I have been so exhausted with work and finals finishing up, I put the blog on the back burner. But because I have some time to spare..I thought I'd throw down a line of random thoughts for the week:

• People who hit their dogs need to get socked.seriously. I called the cops on a guy who was hitting his puppy only to find out later he was fired from his job. Do I feel bad...no...not.at.all! :)
• I'm pretty sure if I can have any singer's voice in this world...it would be Adeles. When I drive to work...I impersonate her. If she only knew that I could be her back up, my life would be perfect ;)
• I have a photo shoot in about 2 weeks...EEK! What to wear, what to wear!?! Way to excited to be photographed by the talented Lucy Manalo..she is the bomb...word!
• School starts up next Monday. I am so excited yet terrified at the same time. My goal is to really bust my butt and get STRAIGHT A's this quarter..no A-...but an actual A. Tryin' to graduate with honors is tuff but it is my goal.
• I miss my friends, if only a certain married couple can invite me over for dinner....just saying. ;)

There you go world. Randomness for the day. Back to work to make that money but it's okay because for some reason...today feels different. Today feels more exciting, joyful, and for some reason, just more beautiful than any other day.

Because it makes me happy......

Spitting game

I suck at it. I don't even know if "suck" is the RIGHT word for it. I'm not that "suave rico" type of girl, I is who I is!! ;) Plus I am mad paranoid about giving out my phone number to random strangers!! I'm one of those people who thinks ,"What if he's a crazy psycho killer?! What if he steals money from my bank account with my phone number?!". People I promise you these are the EXACT thoughts that run through my mind. An older co-worker told me if that's the case I should just live in a bubble and never talk to anyone in life. Way. To. Ruin. Lives Albert.

So after meeting a guy at Starbucks, I decided to switch it up this time. I decided that I wasn't gonna be afraid of people, why should I! I'm a Sociology major, I should LOVE people!? I told my best friend Stephanie about him and the FIRST sentence that comes out of her mouth, "Just don't get raped!". Cue sad music playing. Back to my bubble I go. Just kidding, as much as that may SOUND crazy internet, trust me..that is her random and awkward way of loving me and telling me to be careful and watch out for this guy....I just deal with it.
I now see where I get this mindset...Thanks Steph!;)

New Blog Name

"Write your own life's story" the picture frame read when I opened the bag from one of my best friends. It's a picture of an old school type writer that typed the words "xoxo" and with that little 5 word sentence. I began to get choked up inside. If I am being completely honest, I have always wanted to write. I used to write books when I was younger, and even won awards for them back in Jr. High. Being able to express myself so freely on paper has always been my desire but I was always too afraid to do it. Now that I am older, wiser (somewhat), and actually have something to say, I am going back to my first love.



I don't know what I want to write, definitely something inspirational but I just don't have the slightest clue where to even begin. So I decided to start here! It may be on a blog that no one reads or knows about, but it's there. And it may not be in a book, or magazine, but what I'm feeling, what I believe, and what I desire in life is sitting right here, in hopes that one day, it can change someone's life or even inspire someone to do what they have always been afraid to do.

And an extremely important part of my life, I feel the need to write:
Since August 2009, I have been going through a time in my life I like to call "realization". From Aug. 2009 to about September 2010, I have been really going over the choices I have made in my life, what I believe, and in reality....who I was. I REALIZED that I like everyone else in this world am NOT perfect. I learned to not hide behind my honor societies, clubs, meetings, and organizations when I messed up, but rather own it and make it better. Boom, simple as that. During this time, I realized who I was, and it was beautiful. I became one with myself and realized how much I needed all that bad stuff to happen in order for me to go through this time in my life.

Since the beginning of the New Year, I realized that my "realization" time was over. That time of learning about myself and my decisions was finally over, and now..it is time to take the test! Everything I have learned within that last year is now finally being put to use and I can honestly say, I am beyond thankful for it. So this time in my life...what do I call it? Simple, the "write your own life story" time. Where I will try to write what goes on in my life, what I feel, what I see, and what I desire. Not just for you to read, but for myself. So one day, I can look back on this and reflect on the person I once was, and the person I (hope) to become.

-Anneliese