That's where I feel I am at in my life. Since the beginning of the year, I have been in deep thought about a lot of things going on in my life...mostly surrounding the infamous question of, "Who am I?". With the busyness of helping one of my closest friends with her wedding, a family friend passing away, and the stress of school and work...I feel as though the last 2 months have been nothing but a blur. My thoughts have been scattered, my room is a MESS, and I seem to be running on fumes in order to get through the day. Beyond all the physical attributes that have stressed me out, I've turned into this emotional person...MORE than usual! There are so many changes going on, that it has caused me to really just step back and reflect on my life.
When in class, so many thoughts run through my head, "I have to turn in that report....remember to email her about Thursdays meeting....don't forget to make flashcards for the midterm". Even though these things may seem so small, they are detrimental not for what they are but for what they represent. Education is something I have come to value so much, that at times I'm afraid that ONE C I got on my test..will ruin my academic career for-ev-errrrr!
I'm not to sure what this blog post is really supposed to mean, or represent. But I do know that right now in my life, I am at a crossroads in my life in where I am, and where I want to be. I'm at the point of change. Officially feeling the change from transferring to a University. No longer 21 years old, but 22...so basically that means I am officially not considered a kid anymore. But most importantly, a change in ME. The way I think, the way I act, the way I view things. It's all changing and I am learning more and more about myself and life as days pass by.
So today, I accept the new change. I accept the new ideas. I accept the new relationships and friendships that life brings. I accept being 22 (ugh). I accept having more financial responsibilities. I accept the new stage of life I MUST enter in order to grow. And along with new changes, I realize I still am me, just refined you can say ;)
One of my closest dearest friends gave me a picture that says, "Write your own life's story"..so that Stephanie is what I am doing. I am writing my life story, and even though my plans will most likely change, I am still doing what I need to do.
As I said before...I am not to sure what this blog post is supposed to mean, or if it even makes sense. But these are my thoughts. This is whats going on with me. Don't judge, just love me ;)
