I did it...

I finally caved in and got a twitter account. Oh world, it's official, I can never hide from the cops. I am WAY to connected to the internet, seriously, google me. It's ridiculous.

oh well, hopefully with all these connections to the web, I can somehow help people :)

twitter: @annetru31

love,

the social media addict

my life is cray

yes, i said cray. waaaaaah! (snooki cry). life has been crazy fast this last quarter, i'm already in my 8th week at school which means 2 more weeks of school and i'm done! wooo hooooooooo! spring break has never looked so good!! :)  this quarter has been so great, and to be honest, i definitely needed it after fall quarter. i had way to much going on inside and outside last quarter, so it is great to be busy, ya know the good kind of busy :)
this is what life has consisted of:

• mcnair research....actually, i havent even started on this lol my research proposal is due this friday which usually one would freak out BUT seeing as my topic is on social media...it's pretty much cake! ;)
• classes. my classes have kicked SO MUCH BUTT this quarter. my professors rock and one of my professors even asked if i would like to present at our departments undergraduate symposium this upcoming may on the issue of.....wait for it...PROSTITUTION! i'm not even gonna lie, i am beyooooond excited about this! i will be discussing why it should be illegal and banned and it's effect on women/men. more deets to come later but it is going to be such a great experience.
• work. work. work. work. i'm just gonna leave it there ;)
• my apu class. man, this class has been so great and such a blessing. i'm learning so much and i have gotten to meet new people that is pretty exciting. it's definitely an awesome feeling when you meet fellow students who are in the same position you are in life and share the same beliefs :)
• akd. i don't want to brag or anything buuuuuuut, this board is ahhhhmazing! with all the fundraising (whoot whoot, i'm the fundraiser coordinator! ;) , grants, and donations, we have accumulated over $4,000 dollars this year! la la love being a part of a board that desires to see change and help our members as much as possible! :)
• and myself, i'm doing great! learning the definition of "grace" everyday and i love it. i've lived my life seperate from God and i can tell you, life is so much easier with Him than without Him. He is continually blessing me when in reality, i totally don't deserve it. but that's His grace, mercy and love for us and man is it so so sweet!

so that is what my life consists of. being busy. but good busy. the type of good busy that makes me thankful and grateful to have such a blessed life.

A

16 days

It has been SIXTEEN, 16, diez y seis days since I last blogged, and I feel like a chump! lol It has been a crazy start with the new school year but so far, classes are going GREAT! And the best part of all, I found out I will be done with school this fall and will be walking in June! woo hoo!!!! All my hard work is finally paying off :)

On another note, I'm sick. Everytime I try to drink water, I feel as though I'm swallowing a chip...you know how it kinda cuts your throat lol Anyway, it's gnarly, and I don't feel like being at work. Luckily, tomorrow is my last day here and I will be FREE AT LAST till Monday. So far, this Winter quarter work schedule is kicking major boot-ay! Monday and Wednesdays 12:30 - 4:30 and Tuesdays all day from 8:00-4:30. So even though I'm on campus Thursdays & Fridays for school/meetings...it makes ending the make at least ten minutes close to home so so much sweeter :)

Besides that, life is busy and crazy and beautiful as usual :) PS...I saw the below picture on a blog a couple of weeks and I DIE everytime I see it. lol Pathetic, I think the most random things are hilarious :)
Happy Tuesday!!

1st post of 2012...

Happy New Year! 2011 is out the door and 2012 is here and ready to play! woo hoo for second chances and new beginnings :) 2011 has been a crazy year, but I am beyond thankful for everything i've gone through. i'm super duper excited for 2012 and look forward to growing more as a daughter, sister, best friend, class mate, co-worker, or whatever other labels i will hold this new upcoming here :)

life is beautiful.

i got to spend my last day of 2011 with these people and some other folks from church. we ate in-n-out and went over our Pastors house to ring in the new year. than we watched 2012. ya know, since it was so appropriate ;) 

on Sunday I decided to stay home and watch church online. staying home in pajamas and bible study...YES! my mom cooked a huge sea food feast (apparently it's good luck to eat sea food) and i met up with a friend to exchange gifts. i've worked with lorraine for the last year and a half, and when you work with someone everyday and drive with them 2 hours everyday, you really get to know someone lol. she gave me a collage of pictures from all our crazy times together (and yes, that is me in the bottom right corner as a robot...we would get bored at work sometimes..don't judge us! ;) she also gave me that nikon lens......CUP. when i opened it, i just stared at her because i totally thought she actually bought me a camera lens lol my thought process went like this...

"oh my gosh, lorraine. no you didn't. you seriously bought me a camera lens. wait...i don't have a nikon, i have a canon so i won't even be able to use it!!!! oh wait...what...it's a coffee cup. oh i knew that"

lol

but i think the best thing of all was her card. for the record, i'm the emotional one of the group. when my friend got proposed to, I CRIED AND SHE DIDN'T EVEN SHED A TEAR. yes, internet...i'm that annoying friend that cries during movies, commercials, and still refuses to watch the part in lion king when mufasa dies. annnnnd what.

but in her card, it was different. she told me i changed her life. she told me i made an impact. she told me that she believed in me to change the world. and that's when the water works came. sometimes i really don't believe i'm anything special. sometimes, i think i'm completely stupid. sometimes, i get this crazy idea about changing peoples lives.

but what i've learned over the last year is that it's not that i fear failing...it's that i fear i will succeed at everything i want to do and i don't know what to do with it. 

yes, world. i am afraid of doing something greater than i'm called to do.

my fear will often get in the way of me achieving my dreams. but than i get these little reminders from friends, family, God.

"Anneliese, I believe in you. Stay amazing, Stay strong. You WILL change the world one day"

and my fear disappears instantly.

so my resolution this year is to stomp out fear and live vivaciously (hey now..using big words!) and walk in the name of love always.

salute to an amazing 2012 start!

it's okay to not be okay

this past week has been crazy. on tuesday, we found out that one of my friends' mom was diagnosed with cancer, and she is already at stage 4. when my best friend called me to tell me the news, all i could do was ask God why. Why cancer? Why this family? Why this woman? The answer: i don't know. Sometimes we don't know why certain things happen in our lives. we don't know why a family member is taken from us, or why we lost a job. but what i do know is that what can be broken, can be healed, and what we see, is not what God sees. I read this blog post today from Bianca Juarez and thought it was appropriate for what's been going on this week.



 

When life is tough and you feel like you can’t go on, it’s okay to not be okay.
When money is tight and you are stressed about the bills, it’s okay to not be okay.
When your heart is broken and you’re devastated and alone, it’s okay to not be okay.
When life doesn’t make sense and you feel lost in a maze, it’s okay to not be okay.
When dreams are shattered by reality, it’s okay to not be okay.
When death takes someone you love, it’s okay to not be okay.

Sometimes as Christians we lose perspective of the One who fights for us. Like, since we’re Christians we shouldn’t lose our marbles, yell alone in our car, or cry because life is too much. We should be perfect and pretty and polished. We should quote scripture and hold onto to promises and never, ever be angry.

However, when I look at scripture I see ordinary people, serving an extraordinary God, still have meltdowns. David was a emotional basket-case; yet he was king. Job cursed his birth; yet lived a long life. Naomi admitted she was bitter and forgotten; yet her promise was met.

These characters had space to not be okay. And it was okay.

Job, Naomi, and David all professed God as the provider of their needs. They trusted him. They loved him. But in their lives we see moments of stress, depression, turmoil. Confusion, aloneness, despair. Fear, doubt, poverty.

In moments of confusion, desperation, or bitterness, don’t hide alone in a closet. Or worse, don’t isolate someone because they’re not okay. We all need space to process our emotions without the feeling of needing to be fake or fine or in control. God’s in control. We run around like fools acting like the world is ending until He stops us, reminds us, and assures us… everything is going to be okay.

sometimes I hate being a girl (girls only)

and I found a few reasons why here....

I hate that sometimes I freak out about something small and turn it into something much bigger than it ever had to be. 

I hate that sometimes I can’t explain the tears running down my face. 

I hate that there are days that I just want to stay in my pajamas and read a book *Edit* Scratch reading a book and substitute watching mind rotting tv instead! ;)

I hate that once a month, for three days I have to pop Advil and Motrin like M&M’s… and I hate that M&M’s don’t just give me the same results as Motrin. *Edit-I don't take Advil. lol

I hate that I build protective walls around myself when I get nervous or scared about a situation; and I hate that I am so far behind on un-building them.

I hate that sometimes I can’t define my emotions.

I hate that when I am unsure of how I’m feeling I start to withdraw completely so I don’t get blindsided.

I hate that sometimes I say things that are true and important to me, but hurt other people’s feelings, and I hate that I feel like I have to apologize for telling the truth. 

I found these all on a random blog...and if I may say, these are all pretty much dead on.

But my own personal reason....

I hate that I always think about past situations, people, chances and feel as though I completely ruined them and I will never get another chance. I hate that I carry this guilt with me everywhere I go as though I have a HUGE S across my chest, Scarlet letter style. Because I absolutely have no reason to feel guilty! Ugh, I just hate that every now and think about how things could have been different.

But probably what I hate most....

is that I feel this way now, but in about 7 days I won't! LOL

Oh Mother Nature, how I loathe thee and how you play with my emotions.

I also HATE the way a girl in my office laughs. She sounds like a drunk hyena. seriously!

i'm.about.to.deck.a.trick.



Merry Christmas

Last night my friends and I all went out to dinner. We laughed, cried (from laughing) and talked out how different our lives are. Having the same friends since 1st grade is the best feeling ever. They know me inside out and are loyal to the bone. 

needless to say, this year, I am reminded how blessed I am to have them in my life.

Merry Christmas to all!

love,

anneliese